Tuesday, May 01, 2007

A Paradigm Shift

Okay whats this all about??
A paradigm shift is a change in our inner selves.. we view things the way we want it to be.. and our behaviour and attitude stems from the primary way we view things.
So a paradigm shift is something like changing the basic priorities in life..

whats your basic priority in life??
Okay this varies from person to person, time to time.. but here’s the difference. A primary priority should never change.. if it changes it’s a secondary priority.. like when I was in school my priority was to do everything in the best manner.. be it studies,sports, helping friends…anything for that matter..
Now that I’m in college priorities change.. away from family..with friends 24x7.. they’ve become an integral part of every student (at least hostelites wud agree to this..)… to give our full in everything.. from social relationships to studies… but these are secondary priorities.. one of my friends stumped me with a question.. she really keeps me thinking.. makes me wonder what are we doin here… was my roommate.. okay enough of her..she asked me.. wat do u wanna do in ur life ,anna?
family and friends matter, Grades come n go, gpas matter, but whats the basic priority? A gud life.. why do we wanna do well in life?? Its just like after skool , u think “hey college life’s coming..its goin to be complete masti..” ..u reach college and you might change part of your opinion..! then you think.. okay after this work.. its gonna be hectic.. but finally some cash.. big pay cheques.. for what?? To have a better life? What’s a better life when you have stressing work, ground breaking deadlines.. hours in front of the computer..or whatever..? when you work you have to work on something you are passionate about..forget the work part for now.. coz I’m not working to know what it actually means to be having deadlines or anything..
coming back to the basic priority in life: be so content with what you have ,..that no matter where u are or what u do… u wud be happy with it.. that doesn’t mean you should stop trying.. but within your limits.. you should realize when you are going over the limit stressing yourself..
I was just reading this book..Tuesdays with Morrie.. one of the most awesome books I have read till date… it’s about a prof named morrie and he knew he was about to die in a few months time… coz of the disease he had.. but he continued doin everything he could do as normally as possible.. the story is narrated by a student of his.. rather his fav. Student.. he wud spent Tuesdays with his prof at his home and they would talk about everything.. work,family,emotions.. its an awesome read.. makes u realize that whatever you do, whoever you are wherever you go.. finally you have to face it.. the brutal reality.. how you have to cope up with it..how you deal with situations in life.. setting priorities.. it’s a really wonderful book.. read it.. its worth it..
Chal then.. serious talk for a while..hope it keeps u thinking….
Tc
Anna
PS: 3 posts published on same day.. but had been wirtten earlier.. cudn't publish due to net problems at grand mom's place.. finally made it.. still no net connetcion at ggrand mom's place..;(

Yeah Made IT!!

Yeah….I made it!!
Hey.. don’t get this wrong.. I didn’t get thru’ KBC.. nor did I finally learn how to make chicken curry the way my mom makes.. nor did I assemble my pc by myself..okay forget the so mundane things in life I have yet to do..;).. no points for guessing what I finally did.. even if u try u won’t guess it rite.. just sometime back I had told one of my friends.. a classmate of mine about a really wacky wish of mine.. its really wacky..;) .. don’t want the rest of the world to hear it.. he had a weird expression on his face after hearing that.. n I realized t’was prolly better to chuck out that wish for the time being.. !
Okay coming back ….
I walked thru’ the streets of calicut form one end to another.. seriously.. the time I started was 3 in the afternoon.. not a very cool time for this season.. it was burnin hot.. but c I was kinda jobless n also I did not know where I was.. thanks to me sleeping in the bus.. got a bus from the S.M street back to my place(at 2 somethin.. ).. sat next to a man who was already sleeping .. falling on the side.. I hate that.. n I always happen to have the wonderful opportunity to sit beside such people.. be it any mode of transport.. bus, train or plane..:(
So.. it was scorching hot .. the chicken biryani from Sagar was already making me feel so full .. and the wind blowing against my face.. it was the perfect ambience.. the next thing I knew .. I had reached some place.. seriously no idea.. I woke up.. coz the ‘nice’ conductor decided that ‘we’ had lost our place on the way.. the `we` refers to me and the man sittin next to me.. he woke us both up ,commenting ‘achanum molekum Veete ponde??” translation: ‘dad n daughter doesn’t wanna go home?’ .. I nearly freaked out.. thought I was dreaming.. cudn’t realize where I was .. n some crazy guy mistook the man sitting next to him to be my dad.. anyways I got down from the bus..and started walking just like dat.. after about an half an hour I reached familiar territory.. looked like I’ve been there before.. so I asked a lady whether I cud get the bus to my place from here.. she gave me a puzzled look .. she looked at me for sometime.. I think she thought I had gone nuts.. finally she told me that to get the bus I had to walk the way back.. in the sense the way I had come.. I was ready to scream out over there.. it was one hot day..
So I started walkin back.. really drudging along…n yeah to top it all I was walking along the footpath adjacent to the canoli canal.. for ppl who haven’t hrd abt the famous canoli canal let me enlighten u… it’s the most polluted canal or whatever.. in the city..
finally I reached back to the same bus stop from where I had got down from that bus.. since I realized that one way was wrong.. the way I had taken initially.. I knew that it had to be the other way.. so I stood there for sometime waiting for the bus back home.. now I was sure of the way I had just gone and come back aimlessly.. the names of the place.. everything.. I realized that if I walk the way back home.. I wud be sure of the remaining way also..the heat had reduced a lot.. the sky had become a bit cloudy.. n then I suddenly had this fleeting feeling that it might rain.. that would be IT… its not like hostel .. where the moment it rains.. we all run out into the courtyard.. the place I mentioned about in one of my posts… and get thoroughly drenched.. but now..its calicut..where I cud feel hard stares all the way thru.. staring back has almost become a hobby.. its just who wud stop staring first.. !!
Anyways I just kept my fingers crossed hoping it wudn’t rain.. n yeah I finally made it home..at 5:30… it dint rain.. n I guess i`ll hopefully never sleep in the bus again.. make it a point to stand for short journeys.. no matter what..and I’m sure I won’t stand and sleep..;)
PS: please donot think that I’m so ignorant that I didn’t know my way back home.. the home refers to my grand mom’s place in calicut specifically malaparamba, for those familiar with calicut.Not been there many times..

2 yrs down the lane.. 2 more yrs to go..

I realized with mixed feelings yesterday nite (the last day of the dreaded end sems..)that I had completed half of my college life at nitc.. feel sad when I think about it.. just 2 more yrs to go.. the classmates, best friends, sharing jokes,
each person who has entered my life as a collegemate/batchmate/classmate/bestfriend/closefriend/friend/even an acquaintance, will be remembered.. the duration depends on the category.. ;)
Ragam,lh farewell, thathva(not much though..! ) and the likes will leave an indelible mark in my heart forever.. I guess I’m getting too senti..
Happy abt 1 thing.. v r still in the same hostel in the comin yr.. phew can’t imagine changing to the new lh block.. its like long corridors and u can’t call out for anyone whenever u wan’t.
In terms of quality, present hostel rooms mite be small.. v don’t hav net or lan.. getting it soon though..but the feeling of oneness.. its like the traditional kerala tharavad houses.. I guess it’s called naalekettu(dunno if this is the way it’s spelled in Malayalam..!) .. that’s a house with four sides and a courtyard in the middle.. the whole joint family stays in that 1 house.. each part prolly one family..
1st yr was slow.. n yes I disliked my 2nd sem thru’out.. from the very beginning till the end.. many reasons..not that t’was an even sem.. a misconception.. coz I liked my 4th sem..
2nd yr was fast.. but then u reach 4th yr.. its ultra cool… nothing to do.. no labs.. not much 2 study.. max of 4 subjects.. if u take overload .. just roam abt.. n yeah u’ll b always noticed.. the younger lot.. that’s the 1st & 2nd yrs.. wud b like .. hey there goes the 4th yrs.. jobless… ! ;).. n then u go out into the big world.. where deadlines mean deadlines.. no excuses whatsoever..

the pro show by shaan this yr for ragam was simply the best ever at nitc… the oat(open air theatre) was packed 3900 that nite… it was an awesome performance for 2 hrs.. end to end…

on technical side.. math over forever.. wrote the last math exam in my life.. I guess so..! its sad though .. coz I liked the subject.. also the bunkometer(the no. of classes bunked in each subject).. had reached a high.. compared to s3.. in the case of some subjects in s4.. which were just plain borin.. thanx to many factors.. which I wud not mention.. guess its obvious.. if my classmates are reading this they’ll prolly be noddin their heads in approval.. for the same subjects.. names censored though.. if u were in comp sci u wud b knowin the most borin subs of s4.. in the end actually got scared if I wud get attendance shortage for a subject.. thanx to the silly idea of 80%attendance.. 8 classes can b cut max for a subject in a sem… the idea of 80%attendance is seriously ridiculous.. I still can’t figure out the reason for such a high percentage… !
they really should reduce the %..
k then signin off…
wanna sleep. Coz of the nite out yest.. actually not a nite out.. sat up till 5 in morning n watched movies.. 300(no not that many… PJ!!!.. it’s the new movie out.. Spartan..n awesome graphics..) n some others.. its always this way.. durin exams.. too sleepy even to sit up till 10 n the day exams get over.. there’s no question about sleepin…;)

Before signing off.. I wanna dedicate a song to all my friends:
My best friends..
2nd floor of old lh block.. (it rocks at nite..thanx to nami’s and shane’s laughter ;)..)


2nd yr comp sci classmates.. an awesome lot.. initially thought they were just plain boring.. during sangam .. when v got the coveted last postn.. or was it 2nd last?? Don’t remember.. even the comp sci t-shirt.. the one n only ORANGE colour t-shirt never seen a comp scian wearing it..except for a few..
2nd yr batchmates of mine..
everything happens to be starting with 2nd !!
the only roommates I ever had until now.. that was in 1st yr..
the wonderful seniors..
my skool friends.. 3 yrs since I saw some of them.. but staying in touch thanx to orkut..n mobile phone ofcourse..
n yes.. last but not the least .. the E-batch.. 1st yr classmates of mine.. the famous 12 gals .. e batch makkal.. (children ;) ) n yes the guys.. each of them a specific character..Guess :
the guy who wud always ask the time..purposely forget to wear a watch.
The guy who wud be made fun of .. no matter what happens.. I guess he’ll never change.. was incidentally our class rep..
Many more come to my mind.. but I guess this wud do.. or I wont be signin off today…!
The song is graduation song by vitamin c.. don’t laugh ur heads off.. I know v haven’t yet graduated.. n yes there is a band named vitamin c.. check it out for urselves.. !
The words are awesome.. but one line really caught me off guard.. goes like this (the chorus line):
As we go on… we remember all the times v had together.. n as our lives change… come whatever v will still be friends forever…
cheers
anna